when two people love each other they should be together. i see all these pictures of couples together and i see couples on campus and i get so jealous and i start to miss him a lot. i know that when we are together it’s better than anything in the world, but still, seeing each other once a month is not enough :( we made it though one year long distance, three more to go, but please, someone tell me that it gets easier

It kinda sucks…looking on twitter and seeing everyone super excited to go back to school when I’m not :p I wanna stay home. Really don’t like it there. BUT I will try not to complain too much about it because it’s not fair to anyone including me

Seriously :( I hate feelings. I want to rip them out of my body and never feel them again. I never want to feel anger or pain or jealousy or…. loneliness especially…again. Fuck it. Off fucking switch. No more feelings.

i’ve found that i can’t even look at other people’s profiles on facebook if i know that they’re going to penn state. i just get so sad and jealous knowing that they’re so close to keith and i’m not. they can see him within 10 minutes and i’d have to wait three hours just to get to state college. long distance relationships suck :/

i am so scared :( keith and i are having problems and he doesn’t want to talk to me… like last night he actually wanted to turn his phone off. i really hope he’s not cheating on me :/ i would be heartbroken…. i need him :( i don’ t know how long it would take me to recover if something like that happened. does this happen with all long distance relationships? maybe i’m just overreacting to it…i mean i just miss him so much and with the way he’s been acting this week it feels like he doesn’t love me anymore :( i have felt like that for over a week and it really really sucks. this has never happened to us before. i hope it’s just a rough patch because i miss him like crazy and i want him to go back to his old self :/

Keith…<3

When the rain in blowing in your face

And the whole world is on your case

I could offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love <3

When the evening shadows and the stars appear

And there is no one there to dry your tears

I could hold you for a million years

To make you feel my love <3

i miss keith so much.

i’ve missed keith every second of the day since we’ve gone off to college, but tonight is especially hard. don’t know why. i just wish he was here in bed laying next to me, holding me. i would give anything for that :(

so soon :)

i get to see keith at penn state in just 2 and a half short weeks :D <3 thank you mrs. peterson for taking me and supporting us!!!

college

college is so hard for me. i just feel unhappy a lot of the time :/don’t get me wrong i want to be happy so badly and i love the school, and the people are extremely nice!!!……but i just can’t be happy. I want to cry in the middle of class, i want to stay in my dorm room and do absolutely nothing. i miss my boyfriend and i miss my parents and my dogs… i miss my friends and i miss my home. most of all, i hate this feeling of being alone. although i’ve made some friends, and i still talk to people, i feel extremely alone. i want someone to talk to. i feel very uncomfortable crying in front of my roommate because the last thing i want her to do is make her feel uncomfortable. she’s like one of my only friends and i don’t want her to spend time somewhere else. :/ i don’t know how to get used to this transition. i am happy that i have a lot of homework to occupy my time because i don’t know what i would do with myself if i didn’t. i can’t wait for this to get easier and i can’t wait for me to make more friends. i feel like everyone on my floor is already best friends :/ i have tried to talk to them, and we have had great conversations, but then it just dies down :/ i’m scared this won’t get easier.

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